Sunday, December 29, 2013

2013 = AWEsome Year for me Part 2

Yeah pretty good year I have to make two posts about it... :P

Just weird though that I just want to sit at home in my new apartment and relax and coast into the new year...cozy up to a bottle of pink champagne and watch NYE on tv...

But I feel bad about my little brother...he is at an impasse just as I was back in 2012...just feeling so mind fucked, nervous, and hopeless...it sucks...

Sooo I've been letting him know about what I had to do that there is money and career guidance out there...

Oh don't start about the the "hand outs" shit with me...it's a "hand up"...the system we have is self healing takes time and knowledge... and there's nothing else like it in the world...FUCK Canada (except their universal health care we still need that so fuck you)...America is the only place you can fall so hard and break into a million pieces but you can get back up and put yourself back together on your own terms...not a caste system's terms...not a religious zealot's terms...not your king's or queen's terms....not a tribal fucktard terms...YOUR OWN FUCKING TERMS...

Yeah and it's not communism when you help out your fellow countrymen by paying your fucking taxes...go move to Balise or ship yourself to Somalia...both places have a great sewer...and water systems...and paved roads falling out of their asses...that I heard of...and fuck Ayn Rand what ever the fuck her name is...yeah like she isn't preaching commie bullshit *rollseyes*...do you know if atlas dropped the ball in a capitalist system there is a line of hella strong atlas replacements...but according to her the world would end when all you asshats quit and live in some commie shithole in the mountains...so FUCK THAT STUPID BITCH...WTF EVER...

I digress...... ;0)

And the first thing you must kill in your old life is your EGO...nothing fucks you over more than your own damn self...I've done to myself many fucking times with insecurity, shyness, or I'm better than this job bullshit...kill it whether you choke it, hit it in the head with a shovel and stick it in a shallow grave...kill that fucking EGO...and it's fucking retarded friend sensitivity...stuff 'em both in that grave...and piss on 'em...

And don't let some asshole or group of assholes fuck with you...I know ignoring them advice is easier said than done but it works...

The greatest power that I found with the ignoring part you do not give that person or people the power of your reaction...your reaction to them is a mental weakness you gotta be tough...fuck wait and cry at home behind a closed door or in your car...just do not react to them right then and there...

Stare right through them as if they do not exist it's amazing how they bitch up when you do this...reaction=power over you just saying...happened to me in my machinist class/training...had issues but came back in and didn't quit my training...believe me it was tough as hell in that training not for the meek that is for sure...but it helps you prepare for life LOLZZZ

Soooo blah-blah...still like making art...the art/craft is what soothes my soul...and creates dialogue...like making a Ranger my little pony that had people talking and revisiting their youth...nostalgia heals believe me ;0)

Ta-ta fer now....


          >>> LIVE IN WITHIN <<<
(as in don't freak out about outside BS...find inner strength)
         >> AND BREATHE OFTEN <<<
(oxygen is the best cerebral/blood pressure reliver blast of awesomness you can do for yourself)






2013 = AWEsome Year for me Part 1

WOW haven't posted for awhile...been on a pretty AWEsome upswing in my life...got an kickass job...moved out of my family's house...and into my own place...all happened between August and now...heh heh...just pretty cool...when I'm out driving around in my new town I still can't believe it's my life right now after going through so much shit since 2005 till now...and those that are close to me know exactly what I went through *points at my buddy Joy* ;0)

But looking at it from Christmas of last year compared till now is just WOW...

Christmas 2012....sucked for me last year personally and professionally...I have a college degree in Industrial Design and all :( ....well I "Design" my own toys so yeah I'm designing so fuck you HATERZZZZ \n|m

The fact was I had no profession just random temp jobs which sucked a big one nothing like been worked into an early retirement because you make half of what their salaried/permanent employees make....then be threatened with "I'll just call the temp agency for a replacement" for being a minute late....pretty fucked way to make a buck...but there is a light at the end of the shittier than shit temp/slave/fucked in the ass work bitch tunnel...

You can actually sift through shit temp jobs and use it to your advantage...as in you have to see through it....as a temp it's like you get to try on new careers without committing....it's like the one night stand the rest till you find the best...

That's how I found out about being a machinist...but I did get screwed over first...got burned by warehousing...back stabbed by packaging manufacturer...two faced and back stabbed by industrial sewing....then the same by industrial sewing's evil twin industrial embroider...Dbags!!! all of them...but machining was the one...I got the "Damn that's my MAN!!" feeling with this field of expertise...

Yeah it starts out button pushing...but to me it's more fun than that...get to trouble shoot...be a part of the bigger picture...I mean shit my job I have now I make parts for a machine that treats cancer patients...

I mean holy fuck when does anyone else go home and say "yeah I fuckin' machine parts that help kill cancer" no one so fuck you...just kidding...I think about the jobs the assholes got when I went to Pratt NYC...LMAO designing fuckin' suitcases who gives a fuck...useless objects that do not benefit fellow man....HAHAHA...my company makes heart parts that help people LIVE!!!

So yeah I'm doing pretty good now...got to take my family out and buy dinner and presents for them ...got my own place and got back on my feet...feeling reeeeal good in Christmas 2013...

Even entered an actual toy designing  contest that a toy manufacturer had...and working on my own plush line....also making plush toy prototypes for one of my favorite veteran owned and operated company love those guys and girls over there....the cartoon that they make is my favorite EVAR just good stuffs they don't know yet so SHUUSH be quite about it....sooo doing pretty good on all fronts...designing and new career...Loving life ahhhh

PRETTY PICS BELOW....are my tree and special decorations on it this year ;0)...and the bird to me represents being able to fly again...cause my wings and heart where broken for 4 years to long...the love of craft, sewing, and my art help sew it back up :0D