Saturday, October 25, 2014


Lost my Mom and lost my mind...a little bit anyway...and wtf is with the "a brief illness" is it the politically correct term for cancer or heart attack or nicey nice term for dying...don't get that...

Anyways...I feel like a ship that lost it's shore just floating...my home base is no longer there...once annoying phone messages left by her to fix something or a doctor's appointment...now I crave to listen to her voice for these seemingly mundane things...just weird that I won't hear her say "my daughter made that" or the term "daughter" uttered from the lips of the female that made me ever again...and I was still hand making her Mother's Day cards well into my 30's...

Just thinking of her house and her garden...she had some talent for gardening just real pretty things...guess I might of picked up on her green thumb and sewing...always remembered her running around the house when we were little with a dress pattern pinned to her and how she could make her own clothes...she had gone to dress making school and got a job in it making pretty fabulous things...then meeting our Dad and moving stateside to start a family...

And she gave birth to what she had called us her "dinosaurs"....she was 5' 2" and all four of us were 6' and above...the little leprechaun that was my Mom dwarfed by here own kids heh...my friends that I've known since grade school remember her Irish accent and even made the joke about lucky charms leprechaun when they called the house...fun times...

But I feel time and good memories of her will fill that space that she has left since she has "shuffled off this mortal coil" to rejoin her mother and father...hopefully looking down on us beaming with pride when her "dinosaurs" continue to achieve great things...


That would be my three brothers and I to remember her by...and hopefully have a pretty bad ass bar crawl/memorial send off for her back in her home country of Ireland...it's just pretty weird that my youngest brother brought up something that my Mom had said awhile back that once her and Dad died that we only have each other...Family Forever